its distressing how you shouldnt trust your judgments when you're in like with someone. and i hate being weak.

its weird how the people you surround yourself with tend to influence you

and how your subconscious defends you from being influenced by a certain kind of people yet you have these tiny desires to be of their likes.

its distressing when you think you know yourself and what you want, your potentials, your inabilities, your dreams, your misery

comes a person who makes you feel insignificant, irrelevant to the context you [think you] are in

im so close to wanting to be everything, to wanting everything;

so close to not knowing what to want