hi!
it's only 15 days before the national exam, and here i am, 1.36 am, blogging.
i studied math for school exam (too hard, i guess) that i got fed up of it. well as long as i can graduate with my own (good/bad) grades, it's fine with me. problem is when my dad sees those grades. God, i should study.
so much has been going on lately, but on a second thought, not much has been going on.
i (almost) met Royksopp, i chatted face-to-face with Erlend Oye, i met Yvan Rodic of Facehunter, i kinda planned to go to The Pains' meet&greet (i didnt anyway). February was nice, full of something to look forward to on its weekends. i should be thankful, i know.
March was full of try-outs. my math scores were never more than 5, fuck me. and chem, i never know my scores (all i know is that it is graduation-threatening, NOT future-threatening). other subjects, i think i did fine. i dont know.
and to end March, there was an exhibition/smthg/whtever going on with some local bands performing. almost went there but the thought of being alone&lonely in a crowded place scared me. this has been going on for the past 1-2 weeks. i wonder why. i get anxious and all whenever i'm alone. funny, i think, because i once waited for something for a whole day, all by myself (plus a low-battery phone), and still could make it thru the day. another reason i didnt go was that i didnt feel well. as in feeling ugly. and when i feel ugly i imprison myself in my room.
this time i didnt, though. i watched Melancholia. i dont know what to feel about that movie. the opening (a sorta compilation of scary slow-mo's) was really scary i had to fast-forward it to make sure that it actually was a movie, not just some scary slow-mo's. i just had to write that many scary's.
i dont think i'm ever gonna watch it again. maybe only when i feel suicidal, but then i think it may not be a great idea.

April! so much to look forward to, i hope. the national exam's coming soon, which means i wont have to go to school, but, instead, to Inten. not sure if it's a good thing. but when you get too bored of what you do everyday, you welcome new things enthusiastically. i just hope it's worth being enthusiastic for.

also, there are so many new things coming out in store. i should start bringing homemade meals to school.


the tune of the week (or 2 or 3 weeks?) is Jens Lekman's The Summer Never Ends mixtape .
been stumbling upon his writings lately. i guess thats what's driven me back to this holy blog of mine.

i'm actually really sleepy and tired, but a thought of writing a post crossed my mind. it's funny how effed-up my set of priorities is.

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